Wandering Thoughs

This is ridiculous. You’d think I’d be over this by now. Why do I still want to talk to...

Fri, 03 Aug 2012 00:33:00 -0400

This is ridiculous. You’d think I’d be over this by now. Why do I still want to talk to you so badly? -___-

My heart twists into a million pieces every time I see your face.

Wed, 01 Aug 2012 11:20:27 -0400

My heart twists into a million pieces every time I see your face.

I’m an idiot. That is all.

Tue, 05 Jun 2012 16:35:07 -0400

I’m an idiot. That is all.

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Sun, 06 May 2012 13:37:24 -0400

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Fri, 04 May 2012 15:06:16 -0400

We Don't Hold Hands

Fri, 04 May 2012 15:04:52 -0400

We don’t hold hands

But hold each other tightly

Pulling

Squeezing

We don’t make love

We create beams of passion

Lust

Boiled beneath our skin

We aren’t one

Merely two searching

Searching

The other….

We don’t make love

We don’t hold hands

Simply

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Fri, 04 May 2012 14:43:08 -0400

Depression.

Fri, 04 May 2012 14:35:20 -0400

I’ll be honest. Right now, most of my posts will be pretty depressing. My life is kind of crumbling. I don’t feel like talking to friends, so instead I blog to complete strangers.

They don’t judge, and even if they do, you won’t ever have the chance to judge to my face.

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Fri, 04 May 2012 14:33:47 -0400

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Fri, 04 May 2012 14:30:31 -0400

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Fri, 04 May 2012 14:25:47 -0400

The words stolen right out of my mouth.

Fri, 04 May 2012 14:09:58 -0400

The words stolen right out of my mouth.

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Fri, 04 May 2012 14:08:33 -0400

"I will be another page. Turned, forgotten, despised."

Thu, 03 May 2012 14:35:07 -0400

“I will be another page. Turned, forgotten, despised.”

- A wise friend.

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Thu, 03 May 2012 14:14:54 -0400

And yet I’d still love you..

Thu, 03 May 2012 14:14:15 -0400

And yet I’d still love you..

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Thu, 03 May 2012 14:13:05 -0400

Am I wrong?

Sun, 15 Apr 2012 20:40:18 -0400

So, my home life is kind of in ruins right now. I don’t mean to start arguments. But I do. And usually, I just apologize and walk away. Except this time, it was just too ridiculous. So I asked, spoke up, pointed out things. Didn’t mean to hurt any feelings. I just wanted to know why.

It seems like my wanting to know why will always get me into a heap of trouble. And it isn’t to be a smart ass. It isn’t to prove that someone is wrong, or that I’m right. I just want to understand the reasonings behind everything. If you can give me a legitimate answer, then I will gladly drop the subject and just deal with it.

I don’t like answers that only tell me, “Because I said so.” It makes me feel like you’re doing it to only assert your dominance by demanding silly things. Am I wrong for that? I don’t like pointless things and sometimes I feel like those are set in place for amusement. I am not a toy that you use for amusement, nor am I a puppet that you can manipulate and control. I am a teenager who, for the most part, is a mature and responsible young adult. I’m moving out in the fall. I’m already just about done with my freshman year of college, and I haven’t even graduated high school yet.

All I want is for you to treat me with the dignity and respect that I believe I deserve. When I ask why, just tell me why. If you don’t know why, then be honest and tell me you don’t know why. Just don’t leave me hanging like I don’t understand. And don’t just give up one me. That is all that I ask…